Current Mood: Sleepy and fatigued
Listening to: Black eyed peas - dirty dancing

Hurray... the hectic week ends today at 12:45 wif an automated remedy of my perturbed mind... I was momentarily at lost as i walked out of the school. Simply becos, i reminisced the past again, where this time i am most prob wif that someone... Where is that person now? Is that person happy? i really missed the days, i missed the sweet memories, i missed the everything, i missed the kiss without you knowing, do u? or is it that all i have done was just another form of entertainment for u? DO you noe how much i have loved you? Why can't it be simple?

my train of thoughts was obstructed by RaCHEL BEE wif her UsuAL LOUD but ADDICTIVE laughter.. i muz say she scores full marks in voice projection man... We are so lame that we laughed like mad la.. It was really abs training session wif her man..

After much exaggerated laughters, i proceeded to somerset to meet Summer... haha she preferred to be called summer but trust me she DONT LOOK summer lo haha... C'mon look at her OVERWHELMING FATS saying hello to me every moment... The first thing i did was to show her this quote" If u think u r fat, U probably are.. so dont ask" haha.. HAiyo.. jokin nia la..relax. I am not mean la, juz that we criticise everytime we see each other.. so its nothing special... Oh and she was so called saddened wor... when i mentioned her aHem.. haha Unrequitted love? but anywayz we catched a movie " COnnie ANd Carla ".. Thnks to her argument wif me about abortion, we bought the tix at $8.50.. Seems that i have upgraded to OUB hor... Kaoz.. The show i must say was quite nice la.. wif the two gals who poses as transexuals... I exceptionally love this phrase " U got only one life, The choice is yours to choose as long as u are happy " AFter this line... i pondered and well i changed my perception of Transexuals.. Well they are humans too.. maybe they feel better and happier after a sex change...

Singapore is really getting frustrating nowadays... The censorship system sux too la.. which country actually have censors that are like R21? pls lo america the highest is like NC17.. crap.. Whatever la.. they are juz forcing ppl to download more pirated movies.. so 3 cheers for their futile efforts... WhatEVER!

***THE FOLLOWING CONTENT IS RATED M18***

Just a joke... i dont have sexual content la.. juz that i would like to share many trivia information bout me wor.. Uninterested parties can simply press alt F4... thnks haha... Well.. Seriously, i really think that People are really sinking into this SHALLOW CULTURE.... it is by no doubt that many ppl juz go for looks... i just dont understand... That also explains part of the increasing divorce rates in singapore lo... Why not try to love someone for who he/she is rather than judging them... WE all JUDGE... When ppl wear pink, we judge... This has become a common phenomenal.. indirectly making the definition of love blurred... What is really love? I once thought loving someone is committing and sacrificing with a certain chemistry involved. I was wrong...

I realised i wasnt that innocent when i was young.. Well i lost my first kiss when i was like K2? i have muffy recollection but i do remember it happened during the screening of a play. As we know, we kids are paired up wif gals and held our hands like so cute la.. But now if this were to happen, we rather kill ourself as if there is no tomorrow lo... Then i was this little boy who experienced my first temptation wif this gal K. As the lights dim, my heart palpitated... I knew something was coming, but was unsure... There i was watching the play halfway and a sudden watery sensation pass thru my lips wif a luscious touch... It was wet, it was messy, it was short, yet it was memorable.. I was shocked but it was so sweet la... Well the teacher of course witnessed this and alarmed my mother which i became the laugh stock of her colleagues.. BLEAH! Haiyo so pai Seh...

To tell you the truth, i have never really fell in love before until secondary 3 where
i first known this gal P.. she was really caring, understanding or shld i say knows alot bout me? I was attracted by her kindness, attracted by her good nature... Gosh.. her character was like exceptional... But we were really good frens at first.... I was confused at that time, yes i was indeed... I was lost, i was stucked, i resisted many times but eventually gave in and confessed my love for her.. HOWEVER... I realised my love for her is just unrequitted.. She had already set her eyes wif another guy... Hmm.. i was sad.. i cried for the first time since very long time.... I was lost... I doubted myself.. LOVE? what is this silly obession about? I was affected but i did get over it recently.... It was really overwhelming... but at least i dared, at least i tried...

I have only two real love in my life.. The more emotional comes wif a tragic end for me but a happy ending for that person.. my life is depressing, yet i went thru it, yet it was a dramatic and unbelievable experience for me... I dont fall in love easily but when it does, it always end wif a twist, an enigma... it was like a fairy tale gone mad, a book without the ending or a movie without sound... My second love, which i will talk bout it next time i blog... its gonna be exciting wor...
The second love started wif sweetness, went thru wif anticipation and surprises but ended wif tears to neutralise everything that has occurred... its not easy, its hard for me, its not normal, but i have experienced it... i have changed my perception of love, i have sacrificed, i have i have......