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Sunday, September 26, 2004
ReSiDenT EviL EsCapAdE Okay i am fed up wif my internet connection today and i lost my fuckin pens that i just bought la..think my mum threw away... i wrote so much just now and everything just went berserk wif my com... Bleah.. Well today went out wif Cheryl to catch our preview of ResidEnt evil: ApoCalypse.. k i was late cos i was indulged wif some movie just now.. but she bought tickets first yeah... and so we bought the er 4:35 show..yes we proceeded to study.. can u imagine haha.. although i am watchin movie but still need to study k.. not bad i practically finished like my organic chem haha.. yeepee.. I must say the movie roX big time... Non stop action that makes cheryl just scream like nobody business haha... thnks to the loudness of the effects that covered her scream haha.. but well at least its not tt bad as the previous horror flicks where mascaras smudging are a fashion statement then haha... Okay so today i was smart... wore free size shirt.. haha.. today at least she just grab my arms nia... heng.. later bishy bashy i die.. Blue black.. then there was this part so funny.. We were astounded by Alice and Valentine.. esp Alice having such a kewl attitute and figure.. but guess Cheryl was like turned off by her boobs which were ma chiam airport la.. haha.. the truth is er... the breast are digitally enhanced haha.. so er.. if thats still small.. then nothing much to say le.. anywayz i still think she is a hot sexay mama! haha.. Yeah we took some nice pix ya.. we bitched, we chat but at least we did some studying better than me procrastinating at home staring into blank.
"SmileZzz" "er Cheryl tts obscene can haha" "er Benji acting cute... haha" "Cheeky ChEekAy" Lastly, before i indulge myself into my notes.. er Cheryl.. i am distraught k... Can u believe i actually shy-ed haha... er i am trying my best to muster ernuf courage k.. haha I miss her so so so much.. and and ya... Just like what i said just now in the MRT.. If the boat has left me, i will increase my speed to get back the boat no matter what.. And if she ai mai ai mai, i will carry her until we reach the boat...but if she insist in letting the boat leave, i will rather stay in the water and let her stay in the boat... haha.. U noe what i mean.. .Now change of mood... back to study... 
|| Benji LuStEd aT 9:11 PM ||
Saturday, September 25, 2004
Goodness.. my eyes are like swollen now thanks to this Taiwan Drama i watched just now... Oh my god... its the most touching, most controversial, most Gek sai experience i ever had.. haha.. Its called "Crystal Boys" a.k.a Nie Zi ( unfilial chilld ).. yes there are elements of homosexuality in the show but its real sad la..
This guy "Ah qing" live in a destitute place in taiwan at that time.. His father is a reputed soldier, a traditional man.. His mother is like 26 years older than the husband.. his mother's ideology is so different so she left the family and went to pursue her dream of being a dancer which she was like a stripper like tt la.. So the mother thought everything was successful until she got cheated and became a prostitute.. " Ah qing" and his younger bro saw their mother but their mother dont want to identify them as their children la.. Then the father was like jobless.. Ah Qing had this very close guy fren "Zhao Ying".. He was the principal's son so although his grades werent that promising, he still manage to continue studying... One fine day, Ah Qing just taught his bro how to play harmonica. Then he went to Zhao Ying house to celebrate his birthday.. Zhao ying was like surprised that Ah qing would buy him a shirt despite his poverty condition.. Suddenly, they were like snatching the basket ball.. then tada.. they ended on bed with eye contact.. Then Ah Qing realised he like Zhao Ying.. But Zhao Ying was well label crisis.. and so when they celebrated, his bro fell too sick but nobody was at home and so he died... That Scene was like Whoa! damn sad... then Ah qing was like so depressed, so he went to look for Zhao Ying in a Chem Lab.. Zhao Ying hug Ah Qing to console him.. but never did he realise that the hug turned into a nite of affection as he also had some feelings for Ah Qing. Ah Qing impulsively kissed him and they kissed, hugged like they are dieing tomorrow.. The principal caught them hanky panky.. So Ah qing because he was poor, was expelled from sch while the other guy was let off.. It was like !!!! To make matter worse, Zhao Ying punched Ah Qing for kissing him.. BASTARD.. kaoz then Ah Qing stared hard at him and left.. Ah Qing's Father puched, kicked him and he left home.. Something like tt la.. then they reached this place where this lao ah pek take in all the ppl that left home.. Then many beri touching stories evolved with four more guy, one a devoted gay lover, the other a sissy gay who had a sugar daddy, another one lived in torture bla bla.. the whole drama was damn Nice la!!! haha
Er of course the drama will not be shown in Singapore as usual.. but its not sexual at all..just pure true love evolving wif complicated characters... haha.. my hands are acheing now haha.. yeah gotta stop now.. ciaoZz
|| Benji LuStEd aT 5:54 PM ||
Friday, September 24, 2004
I am Totally Dreaded...weary and exhausted please.. Whew need to gasp some fresh air...
Life is getting boring boring day by day... all i see now are just books of all sizes... hmm shld i like start burning the books like what Qin Dynasty did.. Today had like what? Chinese promo exams.. was trying to get alot of inspiration this morning but was like to no avail.... hmm well sat thru the 3 hours paper as if i was living in Antartica la.. god the hall was frustratingly cold.. but i am fine with that ya... The paper was like a whizz.. whee... it was challenging but well its over..yeepee... More to come....
Okay went to des house today like whatever... haha help him edit his gal fren's er pathetic few photos.. okay lets just say the cam sux la... the photo resolution is ma jiam 0 pixels la.. haha.. okay her gal fren looks like doreen i swear... never mind... the two lovey dovey couple makes me want to just puke and die in front of them haha.. seriously.. i need to visit love clinic once in a while to get like some fuckin sense into my mind.... i am simply out of my mind in certain things.. okay i am quite cynical in relationships but i as a guy of course want to love someone la... but for heaven gracious sake.. its not happening!! i can just say bye bye to my boat and like embrace my luxurious and tropical island "SingleMAma-land".. its fun k
K went to watch NEW POLICE STORY.. eh not exactly a Jackie Chan fan la...but the show was well filmed i would say... alot of action.. definitely for the guys ya noe... Daniel wu was like too gorgeous to be a villian la haha.. whatever.. Not quite in a mood to discuss movies now..
LAstly.. I miss her can! i just dont have any more courage to do anything.. i donno.. i am losing it.... there would not be any more new chapters in my life but just an extension to my current chapter.... chimalogy? er actually i also donno what the fuck am i toking haha.. was in a moment in "Blur NAtion".. er ya...just that I MISS HER! haha
|| Benji LuStEd aT 9:18 PM ||
Thursday, September 23, 2004
AttentIon Please... IT HAS BEEN TOO LONG SINCE I CLUB LE LA! gosh i so miss the clubbing days, dancing, grooving, u noe .. do that thang!.. i miss little cheryl can! Miss dancing wif ya... Miss Mel.. Miss Cheryl.. Miss All the old friends... What is happening to my once exciting and unpredictable life.. my sch environment has since dampened my life.. making me less energetic..!! i want the past!! But well we have to move on.. Yeah so i realised tomorrow is Chinese promo? haha okay gotta have some great inspirations to write a good compo! Its time to partay after promos!
|| Benji LuStEd aT 10:37 PM ||
Tuesday, September 21, 2004
By hook or by crook i am gonna finish my chem by this WEek! and i mean it k BEnjaMIn! gosh am i in such a frustration over my non chalent attitude that i have to rush some sense into my fuckin attitute towards studies haha.. okay benji be good boy k.. Yeepee ya yo!
today's pe was fantastically funny k.. okay we had to do this somersaut and Poor Zy could not even roll.. haha.. no doubt most of the guys can do it la... and everyone was like lookin at Fen haha cos she was like the only gal that can "roll" haha.. Lyn was impressive la... ooo she managed a hand stand..ooo then my hair was like crushed to bian bian.. thnks to my head stand.. haha so fun..
The boys today were like discussing bout wild wild wet la.. .haha gosh.. it be so fun la bringing some gals and guys to chill out in wild wild wet! dont care hor... it better be our klass outing.. As usual the auntie me.. would like to find discounts and packages for this... haha i was just crap.. okay back to books liao! WheeZZzzz
|| Benji LuStEd aT 9:44 PM ||
Sunday, September 19, 2004
Bonjour! haha.. currently in a mood full of elan and zest. Actually i am trying my best to er build up my feelings to study haha.. i am so not into studying u see but i have to.. i dont wanna retain.. hmm.. okay thats it! i so like my blog now la.. haha cause got my Elisa Cuthbert!.. i tried my best to make the best background for my site le.. suddenly i wanted everything to be of simplicity.. haha
I was wondering when can i actually go out wif "her".. but u r busy wif ur work la.. anywayz wish u the best for ur exams.. hehe.. Yes cheryl i will go out wif u after promos k.. haiyo Relax.. its not as if i am dying tomorrow rite? K... I realised i have changed a lot! okay let me see... the bitchiness is definitely still there but however i realised i become more subtle and quiet lately haha.. isit because of school work leaving me to no diversity? and my eyes become so tired hmm wonder why.. maybe i am really stressed of the competition in my sch, the sch work and all.. its so EEERR! there are so much i wanted to do... i want to jungle trek, i want to parachute... haha but all seemed so far! lost all my yearning for adrenaline haha.... but maybe thats the fact rite now for me.. i dont see that bad that i should start studying haha well i am just 18- years old haha... Kk hey BOokS here i come!! *muaks
|| Benji LuStEd aT 2:38 PM ||
Friday, September 17, 2004
Okie my site has revamPed! haha after like 3 hours of exhausting building of the site from scratch! but it aint that ugly rite? haha never mind... well did this as a form of respite before i indulge myself into yet another dimension of aimless studying which is so detrimental to my vulnerable brain cells la! kk Go study liaoZ ciaoZ
|| Benji LuStEd aT 10:25 PM ||
Wednesday, September 15, 2004
Today is a day of "OMG" la... Today had chinese test... haha well it really sucks... i kind of like detached from Chinese la... Okay never mind.. then there was this S cube Seminar in school.. I must say the SAF put up a superb performance la.. i was like awestruck! Well lets not deny it anymore ya... its like after A levels that i have to be enlisted!
Yeah.. be a soldier.. serving NS like for the next 2 years... Okay i am not mad but ya i am so damn eager to go NS la.. haha.. Its like its kinda fun but damn tough i must say.. but no endurance how to survive rite?! NS is like kind of a guy kind of topic la..where the gals just get so bored and got turned off.. they'll never understand the experience is exhilarating la.. Well it is no doubt i would say relationships cease at NS haha.. I am not pessimistic but after hearing many stuffs well it happens most of the time... Sad rite?
oo today went to Officer Cadet School for National Education ahha... at JURONG k! its like whoa so long the journey.. Anyway..at that place i was inspired! Its kinda kewl la being a commander or sergeant.. ooo ... my klass was quite lucky la haha esp for Xiao wei to have such a yan dao I/C to bring us around haha... Xiao wei was like wooo la la haha.. I supposed the criteria for going in is handsome looking and strong la haha.... yeah it was so fun.. got to see the weapons.. cant imagine carrying so many kg of weapons to walk like more that 20 km la.. and the obstacle course whoa! haha Kinda like the place ya?! i am going to work even harder for my fitness level ya.. Cant wait to get in... Okay todays topic sounds little bit chauvanist but well thats what i felt today la... well a fruitful day spent and reality strikes and that is STUDY TIME! yeah oo..
|| Benji LuStEd aT 9:41 PM ||
Sunday, September 12, 2004
Jus received the fotos frm cheryl.. Gosh am i laughing like some Xiao Da Bor la.. this is because yesterday me and mel were like so fascinated wif this camera of Cheryl's.. well it has this function of taking 21 continuos shots at a go.. It was phenomenal i tell u.. after like the 10th shot, i was already laughin like mad liao la.. so hilarious all our poses... we named the shots taken to be "RIde oF OuR liFe" haha.. can u imagine how many pix we took.. 60? it was so fun...
|| Benji LuStEd aT 9:13 PM ||
|| Benji LuStEd aT 11:06 AM ||
I was watching Sex And The City and i felt some issues are interesting... Especially when Sarah Jessica Parker pointed out that in our life, we only have 2 great loves.. those love that changes molecules, ur mindset, ur perceptions.. haha.. Well i was like thinkin... o so have i missed the boat? haha... Maybe at this age, we cannot consider our love as great loves.. Hmm.. Y r we constantly searching for great loves when we can just settle down with a fine one?
|| Benji LuStEd aT 1:45 AM ||
Thursday, September 09, 2004
ooo, Wah JAmie, Yan Xi and Yee wah are in Teenage MAg Ya! haha so awesome la... As a magazine freak, can u imagine how much time i spend on mags.. i am so gonna stop buying magazines la... Well the previous post was some thoughts written to someone lo *Wink* haha.. i think its kinda crap but well just put lo... Today so uninspiring to write anything ya...
My mum thinks i am too thin because i have been sleepin late... fine i be a good boy today k.. Love ya mum i shall sleep soon maybe 1 o clock? haha just jokin.. i shall sleep at 11 k .... haiyo my dearest xiao mother... U got stress lines liao wor... Dont get too work up wif work ya... Mummy, when u feel per cher...just think of me nor! haha I think u rather not la... but but be happy k! i will also be guai guai... STOP! thats too muschy liao la... haiyo.. K gtg liao la..sleep earlier ciaoZz
|| Benji LuStEd aT 10:46 PM ||
To: XXX
Reminiscing the first time I fell in love with you
My heart was in a pandemonium.
I dared not gaze into your glistening eyes,
Even so, I want you to know I need you.
The last time I fell in love with you,
My heart was still in a din
I still dare not look into your eyes,
But now, you seemed so far.
Even so, I still love you.
I used to have a drive, driven by your love.
Now that the drive has lost, so is my belief in love.
What is there to love when the person you love does not love you?
Even so, I have never lost my faith in you, or did you?
Now that I try to forget you,
I realized how much I love you ever since the first time I fell in love with you.
But does it even matter to you?
I do cherish you, but do you?
Or should I say you have never loved me before.
Even so, my broken heart still would not forget the true love I have once given
and may it be the last.
Love
Benji
|| Benji LuStEd aT 10:28 PM ||
Woke up like one today...gosh am i such a pig... hmm i donno why but i just simply love to sleep... But it only applies to holiday only... During normal sch days, i am so not going to sleep la.. once i start work, i wont cease till i see something done haha... K let me see what did i do the previous nite.. Okay basically i was watching dawn of the dead (uncut) ooo.. It was Awesome! so horrifying.. Then i turn up the volume at like midnite haha... my brother sure hate me ya.. haha he couldnt sleep cos the movie was so suspense la.. then suddenly pom here pom there haha..
Yesterday had a really tiring time ya... It was like 7 something i woke up then went for PW session in the school.. I must say i really hate PW haha. what to do.. since we MUST do.. so be it.. Then i met up wif Summer wif an initial purpose to study which turned out to be Movieing Haha.. Watched " raising Helen ".. its definitely my type of movie... Heartwarming and happy.. Then we quarrelled over some lame issues la.. i am so not into quarrelling yesterday la.. Make me wanna gek sai and die...
Then i met up wif ZY.. Okay we are like some Auntie-Ed guys trying to search for a SissY-ed Bag.. We are so into walking.. It was like triathlon la... Walked the whole stretch of orchard, making sure we dont miss any prominent shops.. He wants that pvc type of gals sling bag la... It was easy for me to shop alot cos i am like immuned.. but not for Zy haha.. he is so lousy la.. walk until here pain there pain... Guys need to train up more to shop wif their gal frens ya haha...
Finally after 2 hours of aimless searching, we frantically reached some shop in hereen.. and ya we caught an eye on this bag.. not bad looking well... on him? subjective haha.... We were like conversating the same person over and over again. WHo neh? ahem The gal that is in charge of the elephant section of the Zoo... haha... I am so gonna get killed by him now.. haha.. Fine someone got gal fren la... still bitch here bitch there... Kns .. A boy look wif a gal's heart... So whiny! Haha but never mind we did get his bag at last.. Gosh i am so tired... O holy shit.... its 3 something liaoz, got to go downstairs to STARFUCKS to study Ciaozz!
Love
Benji
|| Benji LuStEd aT 3:40 PM ||
Tuesday, September 07, 2004
Hmm i am so wanting to write some things here but i just could not.. gosh didnt expect to spend so much today but it was really happy for me.. for no apparent reasons... Feel like killing this hum ji kia like me... !!! crap.. what was i thinkin... in case some of u are lost.. haha well i cannot say much le la... okay felt energetic today.. went to Tampines sports hall.. booked a table tennis table and a badminton court.. ITS time TO ROCK! haha..
i arrived at like 8pm like some professional sportsman..haha ... well trust me my table tennis suck! Gosh i admire Li JiaWei la... How on earth can her reflexes be that fast.. hmm... but it was really fun la... Okay let me see... Boon pin was like overwhelmed, so he hit so hard that the ball hit my bloody face! Its ruddy k... haha he was like laughin all the way la.. Beri funny meh?! haha.. didnt expect him to apologise... Judging from how chor lor he is like Zi yang haha.... K.. me and hong won like 3-1 to boon pin and zi yang haha... YEah! gosh i so love sports recently haha... so fun la..
LOVe
Benji
|| Benji LuStEd aT 1:24 AM ||
Sunday, September 05, 2004
|| Benji LuStEd aT 7:44 PM ||
Nothing much to post actually.. Well i was just wondering why fen mei mei recently like so pms mode la.. Hmm well hopefully she isnt bugged by any relationships problem or anything.. Be happy k!
Gosh, alrite i have cut my hair.. yes the previous one was horrendous but hopefully this new hair style would not be that bad ya.. Okay according to summer, the previous hair was Disaster but the current hair was just tr agedy! what the ?! fine this old heck i must say really sent me straight to hell man.. I VOLUNTEER! haha..
Alrite so the holiday has commenced. Well so what? crap.. its basically sch at home.. Hopefully i can at least have a day of respite or something.. I dont mind just simply procrastinating at home ya.. today, i felt dreamy haha... After watching some gal's type of show.. " CINDERELLA STORY " .. Are fairy tales really that true? haha its so unrealistic la but i just love happy endings dont everyone? Well, in the midst of the show, i was hoping the censor board could just rate it NC16 or something to eliminate those so act cute gals filling almost half of the cinema la.. They were like so Noisy! haha maybe i am getting old ya... Or is it that a practical person like me just simply get too pessimistic with such happy movies... Its like why not the guy die? or why didnt cinderella have an affair outside haha...
it was like still early at bout 10 pm or so.. so headed to Lau pAt Sat to enjoy some sumptuous food.. Satay... Chicken wings haha.. it was like so different from my usual routine shoppin around orchard... Well Summer was like complaining how my gal fren could tolerate me being so highly energetic and crazy haha.. i must say i am a guy who is very adventurous and just cant stop thinkin of doing something different.. We were like chattering bout kissing and all..o ya i felt that kissing someone while he/she is talking on the phone is so romantic la... its like the person talking halfway then u kiss the lips then he/she be like taken off guard and the person on the other line will be like "hello!" haha..
Anywayz... i was a little fascinated by Paris Hilton.. Apparently, she sued her ex boyfren bout selling their sex romp or should i say rampage to the Video shops in US.. Ironically, she bought a copy of the tape to view herself.. haha isnt that real funny shit la... Its like what was she thinkin... maybe she was thinking.. Why didnt her ex boyfren give her half of the money earned from the tape.. haha.. Then there was Britney Spears.. Pls do not learn from hER.. i do not deny she can sing and dance well but the way she treated life is like so loose la... k thats all for a little gizz of gossiping.. More to come...
|| Benji LuStEd aT 1:20 AM ||
Wednesday, September 01, 2004
|| Benji LuStEd aT 6:35 PM ||
reminiscence...
January 1999 July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 December 2007
Brian
Bernice
Bee Hwee
Cindy
Cher
Cheryl Lil
Danny
Diana
Edi
Eileen
Elaine
Fernie
Gilda
HuiHui
Jamie
Jasmine
Jia
Maureen
Michelle
Mitch
Mrs Koshinaka
PeiLing
ryan
Shiyu
Soon Yee
Steffie
Summer
Val
Xiying
Xiang Min
Xue Ping
Yang
Yen Lin
Zach Di