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Tuesday, December 28, 2004

Pretty exhausted now i would say.. wif wobbly legs hehe.. But hAD aN EnjOyable and Exciting Day today at SentoSa! er although i was like burnt.. and so are the others.. aye..well today was our sailors outing... Was really feeling so good seeing everyone so happy again! hehe...

Er... how can all the Sailors becoming so whITE !! haha..go and tan more pls! and that includes me.. alrite back to today... Sun was pretty good.. took lots of pictures.. and i realised i do have some potential for volleyball eh.. haha... kinda love volleyball noW!! So are there any yandaos? none... Chiobus? A few... Woot! haha esp the white bikini gal but wells.. all is only for viewing pleasure thank u.... o and so i did tan for a while.. swam and talk and all.. and i especially love the Sun Set.. it was breathtaking pls... we took some pictures.. er i looked tired..but heck la... well after all the stuffs going on the past few days..of course tired la...

HEre are some of the pics we took in Sentosa! sure are we Enjoying ourselves!

Arent the pics so exotic? haha simply think the gals in sailing are so cute pls.. haha... like the pics they took on the tree... so cute! And so i looked at the ppl around me.. and somehow i pondered... and seeing all the couples around me being so happy together.. i tell myself.. how much i wish they can be together for as long as it can... i prayed silently for all of them seriously...

Yang and Cher were like a little surprised why didnt i feel very sad or what.. but well.. i feel that i am kinda immuned? cos i have long accepted this sealed fate of mine.. I can only say i feel extremely disappointed, not to the extent of very sad... y should i... i only wonder how interesting that one person can actually make u feel loved for a moment and almost immediately, they took away everything.. not even a fuckin thing for u and u r then fucked..

the logic is that i can only love a person but not be loved.. maybe i have been living in my lala land.. in reality.. love for me is like a redemption counter... only should i give in 110 percent of what i can give then would i be able to be loved back by only 20 percent.. and so i am always this fool who has to do all such things to make myself at least happy for a moment? well thats just fate for me ya... i easy to bully emotionally ma.. so ya no complains...

To the people who have been calling me and stuffs.. thanks for all ur concerns.. i am perfectly fine now.. aint gonna die or what la.. haha.. gosh i gotta sleep liao.. so buaiZ

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