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Sunday, January 30, 2005
Today was really happy... er more towards delirious...y? let me explain... Cos.. my internet Speed is finally to its Optimal speed... All along i have been using 1.5 wireless... but the speed is like 256k modem lo... So i decided to call the technician and asked.. and realised i have been connecting to the wrong server.. thats y.. So now i am so going to watch all the trailers, streaming movies at ease!!! Whee... er that does not include PORN pls... haha... Porn is passe for haven gracious Sake...
At this age..if u r still into porn.. thats so saddening pls... we shld be more interested in the porn star life instead... haha or be a porn star by urself... ( I am Just rubbishin..cant help it.. hormones raging boy here.. ) O if anyone of u have a chance.. do download the Annabel Choong documentary.. I am not Talkin bout her Porn Vid "The Greatest Gang Bang" haha.. i think so.. cos i haven catch it myself.. which i am so not interested... U must be wondering who the hell is she? well, firstly u do noe that she is porn star rite? the interestin thing is... she is the gal from Singapore who went to US to become the greatest porn star at that time getting on wif 151 men in 4 hours.. Promising? haha.. i can already sense desperation in some ppl to now click www.yahoo.com to read more bout her rite? haha... she is from some respected JC too... shant disclose... Once again.. I am NOT PROMOTING PORN.. NEITHER AM I A PORN FREAK... its just that.. the documentary is really not bad.. u tend to sympatise her at the end... cos she got gang raped b4... u shld see the part she fought for the title wif this blonde gal who has big boobs ya.. but slut lo.. she claimed she can like fuck 200 men.... which eventually she did.. which sent Annabel Choong straight to depression for overtaking her prestigious title..haha.. Goodness.. they so much stamina pls..
Okay back to topic... i am also happy today.. cos i bought three shirts!! i love the designs.. i got two from Bugis Street which seldom ppl walk there.. but well i was quite surprise to see alot of shops selling real nice clothes.... Anywayz.. Valentine's and New Years is round the corner... So aniticipating the Hong BaoS and non stop mahjong Sessions.. I am so gonna beat my mum down dis time haha..
Hmm Valentine's.. well.. Anyone wanna be my date?! haha... like ppl will.. well thats just a suggestion... I aint bad la ah.. just a thrash but not yet a shit... haha.... Akay... so heres the deal... i am goonna make a bouquet of roses and bring it to sch during Valentine's.. then i shall not give it to anyone.. To show i received something ma.. haha.. LAME!!! okay i am just trying to make myself happy la... KNS... -Yawn- Benji is sleepy now.. gonna meet my angel tonite...Before i turn in.. just a trivia for ya... seldom of my frens actually realise that i dont enjoy sex that much.. they think i crave for it.. but well.. to tell ya the truth.. i crave more for someone to HUG me tightly and kissing... Aww... haha.. missed the feelin... Droolz.. SLAP ME!!! k la.. shall go off le... WALA... Nite peeps..
|| Benji LuStEd aT 11:43 PM ||
Saturday, January 29, 2005
WHA LAO!!! I am so fuckin pissed now... JINX JINX JINX ... like whatever lo.. blogger fucked me... bro piesed me by destroying my roses me and weilyn made.. Internet connection fucked me hard.. i am so not gonna blog now...
Wait i need to pacify myself...
Okay.. so yesterday came back real early... simply because everyone is out wif their steads.. arg.. haha My dear Bubu also went out wif gf..Sobx... never mind.. at least i experienced a fun fulled year wif "DUmping Festival" so this year wont celebrate la hor.. Fingers X... So its TGIF Fuck day.. Thank goodness its friday.. ER.. wait.. o my god.. its Saturday liao la haha.. blurred...
Anywayz.. i was digressing alot recently...Was thinkin bout Valentine's.. haiz.. the harsh reality.. but then again.. its just an occasion ma... it will be a happy one for me.. though haha.. -Winkz- I hope so... okay i am just being optimistic.. ARGG.. if anyone give me roses, chocoates or whatever they made.. it be.. LETS GO TO BED BOY... haha.. OR SHOW ME WHAT U GOT GAL! .. Benji here will promise one nite of wild sex... Sounded like some male prostitute.. haha.. Lai yo lai yo! watever la.. used to be like me doing things for the person i loved... but now.. haiz.. doing things for the person i love and can only love.. myself..sobx.. haha... i shall blog later..
|| Benji LuStEd aT 11:14 AM ||
Thursday, January 27, 2005
HeyZ... Excited Benji is back for more GoSSIPS.. okay fine.. i aint that bitch la.. recently i have learnt not to bitch too much.. cos Benji is now in a new phase in life... haha... how should i say.. hmm lets start wif today... Cos its like ages since i blog? Akay... So this morning was late for sch.. but came out wif this lame excuse that i went PANG SAI.. cos I DUA LAO SAI.. but what the hell.. End Up become "LAO SAI CONFRONTATION BY CIVICS TUTOR".. okay this form teacher of mine is a real nice guy just that we are worlds apart.. he is conservative, but i am not.. he TRIES to change my MINDSET.. but i became BITCHIER... but that was PAsse la okay..
LETS SHAKE HANDS... I aM good BOy..haha.. He is Mr Tan..
Heres how it goes
"Oh Mr TAN!! sorry sorry i was here early, its just that i went to toilet.. " I h-o-w-l-e-d hysterically.. okay its plain lying but well .. i had to save myself so its a good lie..
"U seems to go to the toilet quite often... u told me many times that u went toilet.." He claimed..
"O..." I pondered HARD..
"Its cos cos.. i am under medication la.. then this medicine got side effects.. i eat one time, i must go toilet shit one time..." I snapped..
Mr Tan was BEWILDERED... he looked at me intently.. and i thought he is gonna say what a lame excuse.. he told me... "NExt time drink wif lesser dosage.. maybe it will help.. try cutting down until u wont have the side effect..cos some medicine u drink excessively will cos side effects..."
I looked back wif a HUH? expression and it felt like a big bang into my face... Its like i became a LABORATORY RAT! he still tell me to update him how is the progress as my dosage becomes lesser.. O so i have now becoming a HUMAN TITRATION... o god.. MUST I GIVE A REPORT?.. LOL!
Never mind.. yesterday was worse.. i have this counselling session wif this guy from my sch.. bout certain things.. and ended up.. he was speechless for some time as i stared into his eyes.. he gave that "IT REALLY HAPPENED?" flabberghasted look.. i was like.. er sir.. so how? then from his expression i could tell how bad his advice would be.. then he was like BLABBERING stuffs.. that are NOT ANSWERING my question at aLL.. maybe i need to COunsel u sir... O my.. Made my day feelin so down.. after some crude remarks.. yikes..
But then i went to this counselling centre.. near my house.. and boy i was so engaged wif her.. SHe is called JANe.. She is smart, i am not.. so i basically got rebutted by her lots of time.. i mean er she asked me so am i straight or what.. then i told her i am bisexual.. she replied.. U had sex wif both guys and gals before? then i was like er.. She was like.. "y call urself that then?".. i said its just some label.. and she was like.. "its just called identity crisis" haha.. then i laughed.. and she laughed... she is so sweet... la.. got some other things that she said that was so funny.. but well i cannot DISCLOSE haha...cos apparently alot of ppl do read my blog..which i am like shock... so sorry... I have another session wif her next thurs.. where she is gonna analyse my past relationships.. haha.. i am like.. whoa.. and the THINGS WE DID.. o BOY..haha.. so kewl.. wonder what shes gonna come up wif..
Yesterday went to see the DANCE CLUB in action... O goodness.. CAN SOMEONE PLS HELP ME TELL THE DANCE TEACHER I LIKE HER... haha.. she is like.. KEWL! And she YELLS! i LIKE!! and she looks FIERCE!! i WANT!!! haha.. okay control control.. but dont YA THINK I am happy rite now.. maybe because the counselling session make me look things in different perspectives la.. I AM A GROWING UP BOY okay... haha....
O shit.. i shall blog some other time...cos its GP COMPRE!!! haha.. o wells.. i shall digress alil before i do my work.. gosh...
|| Benji LuStEd aT 7:55 PM ||
Sunday, January 23, 2005
I SHOULD HIDE RITE NOW! haha... CUTE MA? I realised i still donno how to pose... But whatever la... look at my COMPLEXION then.. NOW IS LIKE WHAT?! EVOLUTION Lol! kns... I am Speechless.. ppl is from ugly turn pretty or handsome.. i am from cute, then mutation till ugly duckling..sobx... never mind.. as christina aguilera say.. " U R BEAUTIFUL, NO MATTER WHAT THEY SAY!" haha okay i am just crapping..cos i am waiting for my dinner.. for now.. YES SIR! WA LA!
|| Benji LuStEd aT 8:02 PM ||
My hands are tired, real tired now... Cos today was SPRING CLEANING for my house.. boy i so enjoy cleaning my room hehe... so fun... while listening to my ipod mini.. didnt noe cleaning was so fun... not to mention that i zone my mother out totally by blasting my ipod... as usual she will be wif her NGI NGI NGAW NGAW.. gosh..
So today's Sunday.. lets see.. should i enjoy myself wif a hot bath or simply watch the tv.. or go downstairs to flirt around which usually ends wif me flirtin myself haha.. just jokin.... decisions decisions.. O as i cleaned my house today.. i came across this photo album which is TADA! me!! haha.. i can only have one conclusion.. I HAVE GENETICALLY MUTATED... haha... Ya la ya la.. i have deformed as compared to last time.. now my skin under decomposition.. not like some ppl wif tao huay complexion.. like please lo... so smooth for what.. creating space for ants to play slide ah... kns.. okay i am just being fuckin jealous rite now...
Okay wait ah..i shall post some pics for u all to envy before u all start thinkin how i look now.. its gonna be unrated HORROR FLICK haha.. so brace urself for a once in a lifetime DiSgUsT-A-THON..
These few days so many ppl birthday pls.. i am like so busy thinkin whos next or whatever... o and i have a few agendas before new year...
1) two clubbin clothes
2) a jeans
3) 3 normal clothes
4) shades
5) CK Be
i think thats bout it for my agenda... aye.. feelin so er i donno whats that word la... its not a good feelin jiu diu le... but the past few days have been a really exciting day and happy days... but today i thought of many things and having a real bad dream... ER PLEASE ITS NOT WET DREAM haha..some of my frens always think i have like countless wet dreams like that.. hmm... sucks pls.. i need guan yin to give me a good path in life.. i dont noe if this path i am walkin is a good sign or not.. but we'll see bout it.. hehe... for now.. its MAKAN! yummy...
|| Benji LuStEd aT 1:49 PM ||
Saturday, January 22, 2005
Morning was C-a-T-a-S-t-R-o-P-h-I-c... Getting hell from mum rite from the start... its like a sudden missile attack.. she is TSUNAMI pls.. she is like HELL.. The best thing was..everything happen on the PHONE! wow.. i must congratulate her for achieving so much IMPACT and INTENSITY thru phone alone... I mean can u imagine quarrelling wif her in person.. I dont wanna think bout it.. She is a beautiful sculpture.. but when u look closer.. she has many cracks.. thats what i feel.. This type of gal is a big no no..haha.. i mean.. she can be real nice.. but can explode anytime..
Anywayz.. went Somerset again.. like whats new? but to me, having holidays and weekends is a massive INCENTIVE pls.. Can u like look how fuck up JC life is.. the monotonous life, the mundane life... only the people and CCA keeps the people workin...
Was on the MRT listening intently to my 'dear IPOD' hehe... then this guy came in and stared at me wif that idiotic smile on his face..i was totally GROSSED off pls.. he was like DISGUSTING la... stare what stare.. my butt big isit or what? kns.. I only gave that.. look-somemore-and-i-will-kick-ur-fuckin-dick look... EEW... Then went to watch ELEKTRA.. like for the hundredth time.. i dislike SUPERNATURAL MOVIES.. its only cause got like JENNIFER GARNER tts why i am okay wif it.. She looked ravishing wif the red costume.. and she kills in a really kewl manner.. Aww.. She has pouty lips which i like.. a.k.a Angelina Jolie like that...
Anywayz some of us have Set up this friendster account call GBLO community.. join if u r open wif Gays, Bisexuals, Lesbians, Straight relationships... its for anyone but preferably JC ppl..if anyone is like offended or what.. er i can only say.. u can please point to the top right cross and left click.. or just press alt+F4.. thank u.. its an effort to gather all the open ppl around JC to not be shy and be open bout anyone's sexuality..
For now... i am going to try out this VOLKA shot that is so cute in packaging.. just bought for fun.. but the alcohol content is like 20.0% hmm.. heck la.. just now i also had MANGO CHEESECAKE.. i am like fallin in love wif cakes once again.. droolzz..
|| Benji LuStEd aT 11:18 PM ||
Like for so many CeNtUrIeS since i can sleep that late... But was disturbed by mum wif her Amplified voice wif so much gusto that she can join FIFTH ELEMENT pls.. she is simply loud la... kns.. I said upteem times how much i needed at least 8 hours of UNDISTURBED sleep.. PEr cher lo...
Anywayz did this mask today.. which ended up my skin super dry.. er but that mask was not bad la... seldom got a chance to do mask.. haha.. today's mood was relaxing... Mother bitchin in the kitchen as usual wif GrandMa Veronica.. Father is procrastinating as usual.. Joe's wif the cartoon.. I am sitting here.. Thinkin.. hmm.. like how MUNDANE my life is rite now.. but then again.. i dont want too dramatic either..cos dramatic comes wif consequences.. If u noe what i mean...
Went out wif this gal fren today..for some EXCITING EXPEDITION.. haha.. She is as hyper as ever..and gosh can she EAT! i have never come across a gal that can eat more than me.. i am in for a competition pls... And gosh today and yesterday got so many couples in the street.. alot of lesbian and gays couples... But they are happy anyway... so ya.. i can only enjoy my life by eating....
We walked around, saw lots of ppl.. saw daphne, lots of J1s.. Argg watever la.. then talked bout lots of stuffs.. laughin all the way.. was very contented.. thats so my life before.. haha.. She is blur.. she lived in Stone AGE.. I am her MODERNISER... Then we talked bout being "DOMESTIFIED" in a relationship.. A.K.A COMMITTED.. haha.. bitch bout everything under the Sun.. like why must it be SUN? er.. dotx.. Love to go out wif her.. cos I'll be like shall we go there.. and she be like SET! haha.. thats the way gal... so went to eat this really interesting Turkey ice-cream.. They are so chewy!! haha Like gum like that..but its ice-cream... So OISHI!
Somehow Clarke Quay became a really romantic place today.. not so much of Clubs happening.. but rather.. passionate couples hangin around wif hands holding together sauntering along INDO CHINE.. like LOVE really last long.. maybe they do last ya.. haha.. lets be positive... Anywayz lookin at old couples holding hands.. Whispering words of love.. make my heart gushed wif admiration... Was really hyper for the entire day... And first time in my life did i get little bit turn on by the HOOTERS Chicks haha... not that they are there for me to have visual orgasm... but its more like they are quite hot la hor... Those sexy waitress.. wearing really revealing while serving customers.. Jas was like staring at me wif total disgust.. haha... aiya... a little bit of eye exercise ma.. haha.... ONCE AGAIN, I AM NOT CHEE KOR PEK! haiyo.. just that some of them are really eye candy...
As i ate my ice-cream gazing at the people around, the scenic clarke quay and the buildings, i tell myself... yes thats what life is for me at that moment.. me sitting talking to someone.. and enjoying every moment...i mean thats what i can only yearn for isnt it?
O.. i love strawberry ice cream! haha...
|| Benji LuStEd aT 1:28 AM ||
Wednesday, January 19, 2005
Okay i am so tempted to update.. Firstly, Economics homework i like still owe my teacher 5 fuckin articles like for what the use? i just dont understand.. but that be my lowest priority... Today PE was like kewl haha.. have to run like 4 rounds around the school... er please lo my neck is like super pain after yesterday's TUI NAH... haiz.. so until like the third round.. i stopped and told my teacher i was really in acute agony...
Then after which was Sea Sports Orientation.. Stupid Di say he will go end up dont have.. Ass haha.. jokin... Aiya whatever case.. i wont dislike him la hor... ?! haha... Anywayz today had real fun... doing the Mini Dragon boating thingy and dragon boated.. my hands were like so tired..but all worthwhile.. then my group got these two guys damn gay and damn ONS pls.. they are like i am poh Kim and He is Kim Poh.. like WTF? haha... Okay DI said he did go for orientation.. i apologise.. I MUST BE BLINDED.. er... Anywayz i was like splashed by them.. haiyo they are real pain in the ass but FUN PPL haha.. love them.. my grp was like exceptionally ONS.. LOVE LOVE LOVE!
Today took some pictures wif the Breathtaking view of the Sun in the horizon.. it was like AWW. but that time when i was still drifting the Sun set was the best! haha... The crimson red thingy spanning across the ocean.. Whoa..
Anywayz remember i talked bout having gal fren of like 20 over age.. i was like visualizing and realise i dont think i be able to keep up wif her pls.. She be like
" CAN U KEEP UP, BABY BOY, MAKE ME LOSE MY BREATH AH AH ... " haha i be like oh my GUAN YIN! But i be pampered by her maturity, she be like giving that da nu ren thingy and i be like.. haha okay i am dreaming again.. Anyway today saw my cute guy and Attitude gal.. so happy haha.. eye candy... but that is only for the eyes exclusively... thank u haha..
|| Benji LuStEd aT 9:28 PM ||
Tuesday, January 18, 2005
Er... So So soRRY EVERYONE haha... cos its like the previous post caused a little stir and controversy to my already intricating life... Once again... I AM NOT ATTACHED AND NEVER WILL BE FOR NOW.. haha.. i am just emotionally attached to my IPOD MINI la.. I seriously love her pls... its like i can really connect wif her... haha sounds seriously sick.. never mind..
However, just visualizing myself wif a 20+ lady wif that tinge of feminism.. wif sexy body and not-so-big boobs and nice legs.. its such a turn on pls.. Haiz but such lady where will like a 17 year old bitchy-cum-horny-yet-still-unsure-of-sexuality boy... But then again.. its possible what rite... if i am fortunate, i may even get to noe any gorgeous ladies that are like 21 years old? 30 also can ba... OOoo.. This is so like having a VC a.k.a Visual Climax haha..... hmm okay i am mad.. but a little bit of dreaming will DDiEEe is it?
Back to reality.. and so i have to like complete alot of homework.. i am so freakin S-T-R-E-S-S-E-D but well..i have my dear Ipod and stress balls to keep me occupied.. hmm.. And today Des and Hong were like so fascinated by my Erotic Dice.. like WTf.. The dice is so cute pls.. its like u have to throw and do what the dice says to ur partner... like LICK BODY.. bla bla... so fun la.. but pls dont GO OVERBOARD.. Caution... K la..go do Compo le.. CiaoZ
|| Benji LuStEd aT 9:53 PM ||
Sunday, January 16, 2005
I have finally Found my TRUE LOVE!! hehe -bluSh-
She is so stylish pls.. and i cannot imagine she is lying beside me on the bed rite now.. and i am staring at her.. wif that farkin smirk on my face.. hehe... O gosh... in short she is as gorgeous as everything in the world means to me... But she quite fragile eh.. so have to touch her gently.. haha... i am so excited now.. shall update soon.. U r my only love rite now.. -MUACKS- !
|| Benji LuStEd aT 11:32 PM ||
Yesterday nite had a real horny chat wif Yang and Cher pls.. and i tell u.. Its so open that it became real fun haha.. Like Whatever.. I must admit i do have a high sex drive but i wont go around fuckin ppl.. Hmm.. eeks the morning started wif my 'disgoosting' brother of mine who came towards me and slap my butt! er.. hello!
Yesterday was worse... banana ExtravaganZA! haha... I was so totally and freakinly turn off by my ah ma who force me to devour so many bananas.. cos no one in the house wants to eat... O so u think i am so in for banana la! I tell u its gross k.. i am so not going to eat it... Yikes...
Hmm.. why are ppl getting attached recently... i am So So freakin Jealous... But judging from how short my attention span is, i dont think i am ready to get into one... hehe... Cos when u give something in a relationship, at a point, the person would want more than the something that u could give.. Its like Whatever... But i must say having a gf or bf have their pros and cons... To me, gf tend to want more attention emotionally and bf tend to want more attention sexually.. hmm so.. how to choose neh? haiya remain single la.. so ma fan.. i need my aggressive-adventurous-active-yet-lady-like gal! haha okay notice the oxymoron involved.. such gals only happen in forms of dillusion or in 'bubbles'..
Alfie says all guys only want the fBB which is face boobs butts... I disagree.. i want F-U-C-K... Fresh, understanding, caring, kinky.. haha.. o there is this hi bye fren which i came by and she actually have the guts to tell me.. "I want to get married and live happily ever after", the next thing i knew.. I said "bye".. come on.. like WTF? the "HAppily ever after" thing really can kIss my farkin ass... U think u still living at 234BC ah... Still in Stone age isit? it certainly turns me off.. haha.. no offence, its just a comment..
Realised ever since i came to JC, there is not even a single "Zsa Zsa Zsu" as in the adrenaline and the strong attraction to someone... its more like "Zsa Zsa EEW".. how turn off can it get..if this continue to happen.. i am so gonna be a monk or rather be single and so enhance singapore already pathetic "LOw sex Rate" to remain at its HONOURABLE 2nd last position... haha.. Okay but i still dont think Japan will take over singapore yet la..But how good does it sound when ppl say singaporeans have higher sex drive than Japanese.. like how nice?
Yesterday, while walking wif Cher, I asked myself what is sex in this modern society? and heres my consensus" funny ppl doing funny things in funny positions" dont ya agree? haha.. nowadays where got ppl make love? they only have sex...but i never say no one MAKE LOVE... thats the major difference.. Hmm whats the world becomin to.. am i just cynical or over-reacting... After seeing so many things happening... i cannot help but wonder.. whats my label rite now? maybe i am just in a new phase called "Relationship-Celibacy" haha.. okay i was just crapping..
|| Benji LuStEd aT 3:57 PM ||
Friday, January 14, 2005
Today had a brush wif death... its true k... i almost died... I was so touched that everyone is so worried bout me just now.. i really appreciate it.. i mean i am so sorry to let all of ya worry k... maybe i still not sure how to control the boat properly in strong wind la... but then again... today isnt a good day for sailing.. u capsize alot and that was my first capsize for the day and that sucks...
And so it all started when i took over huifen's boat as the strong wind has made really lots of capsize and exhaustion... so i was sailing smoothly, hiking out and stuff until the very last moment when my coach asked me to return to shore... never did i realise that a big gust of wind just came and my boat was too hard to handle and so i capsized.. its no big deal capsizing cause u can always upright the boat wif daggerboard.. but what happened was, my daggerboard got stuck wif the ropes and stuffs.. and the waves are banging me in all directions and that daggerboard slipped and lost... hmm.. so Benji u r so in deep shit... and yes it was an interesting experience i would say...The rest of the people are already on their way back and only left me stranded alone in the middle of the ocean....
Imagine urself riding pirate ship for like an hour.. thats how everything felt... The waves were getting bigger and stronger and so is the wind.. and so i immediately sat on top of my boat and wait frantically for help.. but 10 mins passed, 30 minutes pass and wala.. the Shoreline is not visible anymore.. and so the idea of death became more evident as i looked around, at the sky which is growing dark any moment and the serenity of the ocean and the large vessels that would not even give a fuck for u... i started to think of lots of things..i thought of what would happen next.. am i goin to drift for another day or continue to be washed to batam.. its possible k...
And so i drifted.. dehydrated..felt like vomitting.. but i remained calm..cos being paranoid isnt an issue... i fully comprehend the feeling of loniness.. the feelin of having no one around..not even the fuckin fishes to talk to.. i sang to myself, did stretchin exercise, dance a little, thinkin lots of stuffs from the past.. and it all daunts upon me that indeed my life is really precious to me... and i kept wondering, if i die, does it really make any difference, as in my life has been really sucky, but i still wanna cherish my dramatic yet disheartening life... Then finally an oil vessel saw me waving my hands in total desperation as i prayed silently for guan yin to protect me.. haha.. and so i was shivering in coldness, taken aback by fears.. u tend to imagine stuffs like if sharks are around... or jelly fishes.. Three kind souls saved me! i was like wanting to thank them so So much... but i was too tired to talk.. they sent me to the coast guards which then sent me back
REachin back shore, I WAS TOTALLY TOUCHED Pls.. the gals cried pls..i was like o my god..so so so sorry to let u all worried la..i mean it was really accident la... i feel so bad.. i mean didnt expect them to cry la.. u all should noe.. i kinda donno what to do when gals cry... i was like huggin them tellin them i am still in one piece la.. The guys were also like so worried.. Haiz.. it was really unforgettable la.. i really appreciate all the tears of worries shed... i am feelin better now k.. so dont worry k.... CheeRS!
Oh for now..i have to do the TSUNAMI FLAG DAY tomorrow... hmm, i already got my own small TSUNAMI ATTACK.. so i now understand how dangerous sea can be...
|| Benji LuStEd aT 10:20 PM ||
Thursday, January 13, 2005
Er hi.. okay thats so turn off to start my blog wif.. er sorry peeps....mind has been rather blur recently...so if in sch or whatsover never like say hi to u or what... i a-P-o-L-o-G-i-S-e k... been kinda tired la these few days.. fuckin sch life...Its distressing enough to even talk bout this fuck up sch la.. anywayz.. today went to sch and the first thing in my mind was.. what to do later..haha
Er so today i did not get to see my 'attitude gal' -pouts- okay fine! i mean THE attitude gal... Was having lots of lectures today.. but i shall not forsee tomorrow's timetable which is like tutorials all the way... i shall bear wif it... today i went to check eye sight and won myself two contact lense solutions.. er so funny can... Then bought some stuffs.. which i cannot say here.... then Des and me went to watch Alfie.. As usual GV checks my id... whatever... aiya only some nudity and sexual stuffs need to rate it M18 meh...
Anywayz i LOVE LOVE LOVE that MOVIE!! Hush hush.. one secret to tell ya all... come nearer haha.. I actually had a drop of tears streakin down my blardy eyes.. haha... so sad and romantic pls that show... aiyo PAISEH pls... Des also teary haha.. we were like so paiseh la.. cos its really sad la.. cos can u imagine u and ur buddy are so good frens.. then u r supposed to like help them patch and yet u fuck her.. and she got the baby.. and she got back wif ur buddy... and ur buddy give that "i hate u" look and yet u donno how to react.. ARGG so saddening pls.. But i like that AGGRESSIVe and DEMANDING and EXCITING gal inside..but donno her name leh.. i onbly noe she likes to get NAKED haha... woot... aint that interested in her boobs la... more interested in the plot
O and I AM SO IN LOVE WIF JUDE LAW!!! can i marry him! haha.. i dont care liao la.. KAOZ!! And i also wanna marry THAT GAL INSIDE! haiz can we just marry each other.. haha i like that part where Jude Law engage threesome wif two other gals..but they are les haha... Was laughin my ass off la..when He could not "get it up" and so the two gals get it on without him.. haha OUCH!
I looked at Alfie's character and saw some resemblance to someone.. haha EEW totally gross me out... So the moral of the movie is.. if u want to fool around..u can..but dont fuck around..cos u get nothin in the end.. but best is be FAITHFUL pls... cos sometimes u have lost the one and hurt the one yet u still dont think u did...
And he had this affair wif this lao char bor.. and i found out that i have fetish for old women k... haha not as in sexual.. as in i feel like having a relationship wif someone older than me like say 5 years? i admire their sophisticate life and maturity.. but actually too much experience can actually be a threat too.. O and this new movie is So SEXAY!! Starring JUDE LAW, JULIA ROBERTS, NATALIE PORTMAN, CLIVE OWEN... er gonna be M18 la so ya.. its so sexy la the mood.. i love directors that noe how to capture the mood and make the entire movie Charming and wif lots of style and Elan...
Okay enough enough.. went MAC after that... okay i must admit i dont like fast food..but ya.. was helpin Des to think of what to give his gf during Valentine's Shhh...cos his gf reads my blog too haha.... I was dreaming all the way la.. as if someone will touch me wif anything.. never mind la.. i buy myself one STALK of rose lo .. and tear the petals in tears of joy haha.... I repeat i LOVE ROSES k.. haha -hint- Haiz i was just jokin.. So bitchy la me.. so i SHALL stop now..
|| Benji LuStEd aT 7:27 PM ||
Wednesday, January 12, 2005
I was listening to this line.. "its the hardest thing to show no emotion when u start to cry, its the hardest thing to look in ur eyes and tell u i dont love u".. I wondered.. and realised.... now i CAN tell u i dont love u any single bit anymore... after much realisation... I feel disgusted after noeing so many things... I was foolished once but once bitten twice shy.. i aint gonna repeat this tragic mistake ONCE AND FOR ALL... SO PLS FUCK OFF!
Love is just a facade to many ppl.. sometimes.. relationships arent bout love anymore.. maybe there isnt even love in it..just plain convenience or something for u to compete for ur sexual lust... So so disappointed in everything rite now... but i aint gonna change my way of living or whatsoever.. For nearly 2 weeks.. i still love u.. trying to 'revive' what u have taken from me.. but rite now, at this very moment.. I wanna tell u.. u can hAVE EVERYTHING taken wif u .. and i am gonna forget u once and for all.. SO ONCE AGAIN... FUCK OFF FROM MY FUCKIN LIFE.. Thank u.. i DESERVE someone better.. or maybe for me now.. relationships arent important anymore.. WhATEVER la.. The main point is.. I HAVE TOTALLY LOST CONFIDENCE IN MANY THINGS.. and i am now in a verge to bring myself back to track again... U can just fuck around like i even care anymore.. MAY U BLESSED wif AIDS.. haha.. okay i am evil.. but so what.. u r WORSE..
U think i will ever feel sad again? tell u something... I Am living my LIFE so Contented that u can just kiss my ASS! O maybe u taught me something.. and that is.. SWEET TALK SUCKS and that I SHOULD BE CAREFUL NEXT TIME...As a matter of fact, I WILL!
WEll back to today... Saw this gal in sch again... -winkx- my type again.. haha no la.. she is aggressive and super OnS that kind.. but well its all eye candy.. but somehow i hope she be les or once les..cos i like such gals pls..haha.. -dreams off- okay i am weird.. Thats what Blur king said.. humpf.. kICK him Pls! Haiyo dont say weird la..must say UNIQUE k... PUi pui pui CAH pui! haha... so i tried to be a nice guy today.. and i did k.. Was really tired..but growing fatter le lA!! i ate so many things just now la.. now must do exercise pls.. O did i tell u what happen today.. i had this conversation wif blur king and it was so fun to talk bout la.. haha BITCHIN around.. okay not exactly la.. but it was so informative..
Peeps.. i have had like three days of non stop Physical training that my legs are so pain rite now pls.. but i felt it is good for me.. So yes back to ARMY style TRAINING agaiN!! haha.. just that so long never run 2.4km so er little bit buay tahan.. But next week NO EXCUSE Pls.. RUN 5KM hor! haha
Today sea sports orientation donno y somehow quite boring leh.. and u noe what! my whole leg sank into the muddy water's mud... GROSS pls.. it was like eEW.. the worse is my slipper stuck deep inside..so ya..i have to dig down to get it back.. it felt like SHIT, just that it is smooth..haha eeks.. Haiya got to go do GP le la..so blog again soon..ciAoz
|| Benji LuStEd aT 9:32 PM ||
Sunday, January 09, 2005
Today went to phone shop and wanted to buy SamSung E800C but end up never... mum has been buggin me to change hp but but i really love my current phone ma... Okay i love the camera of Samsung but the Text messaging sUx! Argg so irritating.. i guess i shall choose slowly what phone to change la.. i am not in a hurry ya... I am more desperate for my IpoD! which Mum promise to get for me alrite... just that she want to decorate our new house first.. so she dont bother bout me yet..FINE!
O so today my com Burnt! the graphic card burnt! holy shit... o wells I think shall buy new one soon.... hmm i shall check for good graphic card.. and soon i am gonna buy new computer... i fuckin hate to type using my mum's laptop la.. alth0ugh it looks kewl though haha..
So here's a list of what i want this month:
1) new clothes
2) Ipod
3) Camera phone.. (still searchin aimlessly)
Is that too much ah? er well i seldom spend money to buy stuffs ma, so i guess its not too much to ask for ba.. haha okay i sound like some spoilt brat... er i am NOT.. Its alrite if i dont get anything.. just that i really love to have ipod...
Argg so tomorrow sch again..how idiotic can it sound la... o ya.. stupid time slot in GV today... Supposed to like watch Seed Of Chucky wif my mum, end up dont have the time slot..like wth... eh i am on the phone now...so i shall stop now....
|| Benji LuStEd aT 10:29 PM ||
Saturday, January 08, 2005
but mum always say i LOVE HER because of $$. i was like... er partially la.. haha but tts not the whole point k.. Okay lets see.. i quite blur now.. aye.. o Irientation nite yesterday was so FUN!! my grp decided to come out wif an impromptu dance dedicated to our OGMs.. it was quite nice k.. Sexy bichy naughty me! haha.. Got live band performance which bring the house alive! also got many dance performances.. which i thought was really impressive.. the J1s got a whole load of potential dances pls.. Esp that -shh- haha.. Actually i dont even noe her name.. but ya.. she dances well.. and so hot la... EYE CANDY hehe...
Then we went so high, it was like to the extent of insanity.. dancing all the way.. at first the music really screwed up la.. then i hurry asked the AVA to play the CD i burnt... then the crowd really start to Sashay!.. Sonya and i were like shaking our booties like mad!! attracting quite a lot of attention actually cos many ppl were like amazed that we did some really sexy dirty dancing.. but dont want to do until so u noe.. its a school after all! haha..
VEGA RAWKS!!! THE PPL RAWXS!!
Then we went Bedok 85 to Makan.. some peeps decided to go Tamp instead la.. so ya.. I tell u, i had a different version of Land training k... u dont have to do sit ups or crunches lo.. and u can just sit there and develop pecs.. just by talking to Ber, Cindy, ZY, Yang And new fren i noe called Jasmine.. haha.. We were like laughin non-stop esp the Chicken bone fighting experience.. haha.. So funny pls.. Jas is such a funny gal.. haha hmm bitchy but fun sort... love it! haha... So now gonna go out le.. so ya... blog soon CiaoZ
|| Benji LuStEd aT 1:40 PM ||
Wednesday, January 05, 2005
Just now.. i pondered bout lots of things.. Today too many shockin news for me la... i was like trying hard to like get over some.. haha.. I mean.. i am now physically drained because of the orientation thingy but at the same time my mind could not stop wondering... i felt like .. donno whats the word.. not that good jiu diu le.. Bleahz.. YC and i were like talking bout some stuffs..and we got emo.. hmm... and morning -that special person- told me some shockin things too... hmm.. well... er i need to pacify myself..
Today's orientation i was really enthu pls.. o ya did pole dancing haha.. but that guy very shy la.. haiyo.. donno leh.. i felt that time the peeps arent like very into having fun wif forfeits..maybe they take it too serious? i mean its just having fun.. but well things got better during wet games.... I tell u i had so so MUCH FUN pls.. haha.. YC got bluffed by me..I was like telling her i wanna bomb this gal from our group and i bombed her..haha.. so jian rite? but for FUN DE LA! like that then chi gek ma.. then i also bombed CINDY haha that that Wadever! Our group was quite enthu i would say.. they sure have loads of fun la ah...
O ya... me and YC learnt the couple dance haha and we are so gonna dance till we die on Fri.. er hope TP wont get mad? i mean its just for fun la.. u noe i am not that sort eh! Okay lets see.. i suddenly thought of this cheer which i want to like try out on fri... er i got sun burnt today wth! Er.. then we kept takin pics.. and stuffs.. and did a group hug haha... it was sweet la.. O and JUL HIT MY GROIN wIF LIKE WET SHIRT!!! Like ThankS AH! haha.. i was like lying on the floor laughin in agony!! haha laughin i tell u... She was like laughin till gonna get induced asthma like that lo.. so scary but really funny la...
Er... okay i need to think bout certain things rite now! and ya.. y r ppl keep lookin for chio ppl.. hmm i was so hoping got that type of gal giving that kind of -whatever- attitude gal.. haha hmm only my frens comprehend what type of gals i like eh..haha that type who are pretty aggresive and slutty? i love sluts.. haha.. hmm donno how to say la... haiya.. i still haven solve my prob yet.. so ya... gonna go first..
|| Benji LuStEd aT 9:40 PM ||
Tuesday, January 04, 2005
I went To this ludicrous site http://www.auburn.edu/~shephcd/whatyouare.html and i tell u i aM so laughin all my way.. the last time i tried to play, the site say:
I AM A DISEASED VIRGIN WHO LOVES TO STOMP GIANT TITS..
i was like PengZzz.. haha so funny la.. god.. my mum thinks i am mad staring at the com and laughin? hmm.. okay i look like some idiot.. Just now was even better..there was this gal walkin like a model.. then i thought how gorgeous she looks.. and u noe what? wait i still cannot recover from laughin.. she tripped and since she is so tall.. she was like dancing tango pls to save herself.. it was fuckin hilarious.. then she acted like nothin happened..pls lo.. her hand gestures were so comical pls.. i was bout to laugh hysterically lo.. I can only laughed to myself silently..
Okay back to today.. lets see.. i went to someone's blog and found out alot of shockin stuffs.. o god.. i was taken aback? am i supposed to be amused? anywayz.. today was as usual tired like fuck.. voice was hoarse.. sounded like dog wif a sinus problem... today actually my grp quite enthusiastic la..but i was expecting more? i noe they can do it... at least tomorrow.. so i shall bring lots of hopE!! o gosh gonna bring clothes there... cos its like i sure kena bombed that kind... so yep.. gonna have fun tomorrow... VegA OG 12 RawX k..! Dont diSappoint ME!! UnleASh aLl Of Ur EntHusIaSm anD sPoNtanIetiEs.. they are really not bad la.. until now... so for now.. Wa LA!
|| Benji LuStEd aT 9:28 PM ||
Monday, January 03, 2005
sch started le.. somehow i dont feel belonged at all.. er i mean.. i dont feel like going back at all? i like so detached haha... never mind..
Today i crashed into the orientation.. which i thought is so gonna be fun.. but er.. my group the ppl aint that enthu as i have expected la.. hmm but maybe first day ma.. anywayz.. i also dont really have the mood to be enthu.. cos its like.. i aint that excited bout anything recently.. but I am NOT SAD.. Juz Non-chalent la... alot of things 'dis-interest' me... although i must say the number of chio bus in the sch is like alot this intake but.. er i simply dont give a damn la.. i need a nice person to talk to me.. haha
O did i mention that i love the Mass Dance..it was Awesome.. i love the moves and the song which is Usher's Yeah... but i am so gonna perfect the steps... hmm think gonna be nice eventually.. er i seriously donno y isit so quiet at the hall today.. i mean come on we are supposed to partay on the first week!! so i basically just put my dance CD and the hall is so liven up.. Ya thats more like it! haha...
I am so tired now.. hmm... i need lots of water... okay full stop.. i shant write more le.. cos the thought of homework just gushed into my mind RIte at this moment..hate it.. eek...
|| Benji LuStEd aT 7:50 PM ||
Sunday, January 02, 2005
|| Benji LuStEd aT 5:31 PM ||
Okay i am So So sO busy rite now.. realised i woke up like 1 something.. had a great nite =p.. okay my hair is in a mess now.. so unkempt.. like kena raped and intoxicated by someone like that..then let me see.. okay i have tidied my bed.. check.. er what am i supposed to do ah?
Oh ya!!! the fuckin Homework!!! Shitz la.. i am so gonna Die DIE DIE.. Simon Reynbolds is my GP teacher.. er may as well ask me go committ suicide better.. that old senile, yes man.... Speechless... 6 commentaries and 1 book review.. hmm am i the only one? apparently noT!! haha... Seriosuly, we should see tomorrow then.. ppl will be busy copying homework..
Okay before i go i wanna say A BIG BIG THANK U.. to This very special person, although i only noe u like a day? haha.. But U really made me feel so SO SO MUCH BETTER.. I will always remember what u told me de.. Yes.. Remember? HECK LA! haha yes i am so gonna heck it... O ya.. i still owe u a treat hehe... we can always meet up k.. er.. i wanted to say something.. but bu fang bian here cos it is related to something so er ya.. haha
Hmm tomorrow is gonna be a awkward day for me.. not because of the ppl around me.. but i seriously donno how to face er.. hmm we shall see bout that... No matter what.. i still want my LUNCH !!! haha.. gonna go eat liaoz.. Droolz
|| Benji LuStEd aT 1:47 PM ||
Saturday, January 01, 2005
So Here is 2005 for everyone!! happy neW yEAr!
k let me see what did i do yesterday... cos i got little bit drunk? okay.. i recollected that i was supposed to meet Cher, yang, Zy outside coffee bean..well i was late.. Clarke quay was quite filled wif ppl already.. u shld look at Hendrix.. i mean i cannot understand how come so many ppl like goin Hendrix.. okay so something happened.. it is complicating i would say... all i know is we wanted to go IndoChine.. but end up i countdown outside Mad Monks Bar.. haha how interesting.. wif Jia, Gilda, YW, Zy they all lo.. then donno y suddenly got high..blurted out lots of stuffs.. They laughed, i laughed and so screamed HAPPY NEW YEAR... sprayed that foam thingy and my hair like kena banged.. maggie mee-ed....
But u could feel the happiness of the ppl face around u la... which is quite nice.. Then the fun really commenced when we from boat quay go over to clarke quay.. only Jia, Zy, and me went over to Cafe Laguana to find Yan Qi and her frens.. o Rachel was there..and so long since i saw her le pls... she changed so much... to the better side of course.... The drinks there was like so cheap... one jug for like 8 bucks.. and so we ordered really lots of jugs.. cos its a logic of "May As well" thing.. haha.. Cher, Yang, dap joined later.. had lots of fun wif the music.. its quite nice la the pub...very latino? i drank until mah bok, so are the rest of them.. esp Cher.. whoa.. she is like collapsed? i also donno y leh.. i thought i drank more than her..
One thing for sure.. no one walked really straight haha.. maybe Yang la.. then Cher layed down outside mad monks..so are the rest of us..really exhausted and having headache la.. didnt noe their Alcohol really put alot lo..like free one pls.... Then went Satay Club... ate the Satays for free? cos the person think forgot to collect money haha... okay never mind.. Saw Rayner, Morgan, Kim, Xiao Wei,Jeremy.. they were eating there too.. then we decided to wait for the first train which we realised takes another 50 mins.. and so we decided to take taxi instead... but guess what? NO TAXIS!!! what nonsense pls... wait until we can take MRT le lo... MRT ride was like horrendous... changed 3 times and each train arrived like 8 mins that kind.. and so we just slept wherever we can sleep haha... i tell u.. our reputation is all gone..haha so chou lou lo.. but well ppl noe is New YEar la..
Ppl are goin to work and we are just back... o great! so reached home at 7 something in the morning which i can have breakfast wif my grandma.. haha... then i buay tah han.. hurry went to bathe and slept... whooSsh.. and so i am now awaked and hmm what should i do? maybe i should eat first then do some homework ba.. Sch reopening.. sux
|| Benji LuStEd aT 2:52 PM ||
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