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Monday, May 30, 2005

Yep i am back from Camp!! as in its Sea sports Leadership Training camp for the JC1s.. Alright i was really shagged for that two days.. Why? cos have to do many things from helping Gordon prepare the stuffs to cycling around UBIn.. lol...

First day was at UBin...basically cycling the whole day.. I tell u this camp has made me super fat.. WHy? cos during Ubin i was supposed to be in charge of Safety.. so i am supposedly the so called "Medical Hut" lol... and so i sat there looking at mother nature.. staring blankly at the extra 'Kuay Peng' a.k.a Chicken rice..haha.. and i have to wait for like another 3 hours before their thing ends... and so i sat there and talked to this NJC gal.. i mean.. i would die lo.. so i decided to talk to her... which we both felt the need to..cos she is also stationed there..

The worse thing was.. due to that stoning session.. i ate like lets see 4 packets of chicken Rice unknowingly.. haha.. oh no i am part of FAT.gov.sg!!! can u imagine how much calories not? dead.. then i was cycling to this NOrdin place to help Kinsley and guess what.. i was like telling him i be cycling back to base camp which is at the south... and what happened was.. i turn the wrong direction and saw Bernice and Alan.. i was like... how come base camp seems so far.. to my utter horror..i realised i was at the far West..

Then i was like telling them lucky i never travel further to some BUBU hut..lol.. then i looked at them and asked " dont tell me this is Bubut Hut.. " and they were like ya... lol.. they almost fainted i tell u..and so i was like Fark! and so i decided to stay wif them.. at least catch some sleep..i have like cycled the whole island.. peng..

Actually hor this camp quite slack for them lo.. as in last year.. we kena punished like fuck.. Anywayz i love the night walk..which is to Old Changi Hospital there MUAHAHAAH... wha it is seriously freaking scary pls... especially the abandoned house Black stationed at... I think he kinda freak out too... The scary part is the stairs.. cos the J1 pair had to like go up the stairs into the vacant and extremely dark buildings.. but then me, AMnada and Chao walked twice haha.. cos we like thrills.. i dont care.. i just wanna explore...

Anywayz.. the camp fire was really good.. its undescribable haha... O wells cheryl is leaving today to MElbourne.. i am so gonna miss her... haiz.. but then i think i be able to visit her end of Dec .. hopefully... So now i am gonna change soon to send her off!!! but hor i feel sick now..just came back from clinic.. but then Cher i be there!! no worries..

hey i realised Singapore waters not as dirty as i thought after all.. the Sea plus the sun actually cleared my blackheads haha.. but developed one pimple ..which is healing.. hmm... More SEA WATER PLS! haha...

Mum is bringing me go facial soon i guess.. cant wait!!! haha.. i mean who dont want that kind of flawless skin.. although i must STRESS its not gonna change the fact that gals may like me haha.. its still zero but then ..its for myself to feel satisfied.. yuppie!! i want more camps pls... maybe 10 days to some mountain in Thailand?! How wonderful.. i want to experience lots of things in life.. i guess my wish to travel is getting near.. I am not joking. i seriously feel like going somewhere like TImbahtu or somewhere near Mexico..

I dont need any serious relationships.. i just want money and travel!!! o and food..YUMmy...

|| Benji LuStEd aT 3:17 PM ||

Monday, May 23, 2005

.:: DoNt pHunK wIf Ma hEaRt ::

Got totally addicted to Black Eyed Peas new song... sucha sexy song... U shld catch Shakira's Vid er i think is Le Totura.. fcking hot! She did that thang like what Jessica Alba did in Sin City... Kewl...

Mummy irritated the hell out of me.. she scolded me just because she saw me with another gal..o wait.. its not SHE SAW.. its my AUNT SAW.. tts so bo liao pls.. Cant be bothered wif her.. Anywayz.. today was Kopi Kia day....

..:: Lao PahT saT ::

Met up wif the usual cynical three haha.. and guess what..Hui Min joined us.. hurk hurk.... Had loads of food.. Sting Ray, Satays, Calamari.. it has been so long since i had nice food.. O gawd still remembered eating at some rural country near the sea.. and u bbq as the sun Sets.. that is so fascinating alright...

I aint a restaurant boy... still love Kopi Thiam... the food in Geylang, Bedok all better than some restaurants lo.. Ya the only difference is dont have etiquette only ma.. haiya.. be so cultured for what... the more importan tthing is the food...

Just now they belittled my little tongue.. felt totally down..haha.. Apparently my tongue had scars which they all are fascinated wif its origins.. like what the.. i was born like that.. and ya i cant blow job or french Kiss as described by Summer.. fine.. ya i will get Ghonorhea, Syphillis.. everything also too bad for me k.. Argg...

:: ChOcOlAtEs fRoM FiNlAnd ::

Apparently someone still love me alot .. thats my distant aunt... er not that my closest aunts dont like me.. they dote me until like too much too... but this aunt was so sweet.. She knows the path to my heart lol... She came back from Europe wif sucha large box of chocolates, sweets and many other stuffs.. that was totally melting sensation.. I am simply speechless..as in she still remembered i like chocolates like fuck... Hehe.. time to eat some.. I aM pAtrick Star!! haha...time to eat...i dont CARE!

|| Benji LuStEd aT 12:38 AM ||

Sunday, May 22, 2005

this blog is getting tagless haha.. no one seems to be tagging leh.. so untaggable meh...

But never mind.. i still blog some stuffs bout yesterday before i post some pics up k.. Yesterday had college day and it is so boring....but eh the performances were not bad la... but then i dont wanna tok much bout that..cos its really nothing.. just basically sitting down and wait for time to whizz pass..

After college day went to Letitia's brithday party! her parents were sweet pls..barbequed so many stuffs.. love the food.. gotta play mahjong wif three tai tais haha.. but too bad i gotta leave early cos i have to meet Danny they all... and so i left Letitia's house at 8 something.. O i must thank the three sweet gals, her sisters and alison.. for bringing me directly to the bus stop haha.. wha ... i feel like an emperor.. hurk hurk

So apparently i didnt noe the entire trip from pasir ris is like endless! reached Hereen wif MY UNIFORM at 10:00pm.. was greeted by Gary, Danny, Frankie wif that.. u frm 'TAN TOCK SENG HOSPITAL' look... diaoz..haha.. Danny was like wha u took an hour from dholby gaut to Orchard.. splendid... Spinellis seems quite a nice place to eat..but they are closing liao! Anywayz.. didnt expect wha so many ppl there..got like Zeus, Shu Hui, Anthony.. they all give me the same look..yes i noe.. NO UNIFORM IN ORCHARD anymore.. i was labelled "Stupid Chicken" like er... then Gary's fren came.. and yes his name is Wei Jie.. I cannot forget.. why later i tell u.. its so funny..

Then went to KTV at China Town.. it was a good bargain of 12 bucks per person wif free flow of drinks and a bowl of shark fins..haha... dont open ur eyes.. maybe there are only 1 percent of shark fin only lo.. And so i had a great time wif their lame jokes and poor Frankie was so bad at guessing games... Sang until i wanna die... Anthony and i were like whats Gary fren's name ah.. then we were like guessing like mad..cos he wanted to ask him to switch on the lights.. then he was like waving at him so funny la..wif that diva thang.... and he still so blur..

Went to Maxwell to eat and was almost brought down to tears thanks to all the lame chicken jokes and we have 'Yao Jing' Shu Hui, a turkey, a person from wood bridge.. haha..its like how to say.. long time since a good laugh on simply lame and bimbo conversations..haha.. Shall post some pictures soon...

|| Benji LuStEd aT 1:05 PM ||

Saturday, May 21, 2005

Hehe... i am happy for __... aww..so sweet... shh..

My life ah...

I n C o R r I g I b L e... haha

never felt so disgusted by myself yike!

yeah summer is right... I am what ppl call just a funny guy..fullstop... u ask ppl what do u think of Ben.. they be like funny... gay.. sissy... bitchy.. And so she tried to change my bitchy mode and i made it at least for a while yesterday nite haha..

and my task is to make myself as mysterious as possible and making her get attracted by my composed personality..if she can get attracted so will alot other gals ..lol... like how difficult wtf.. she tell me gals like guys who are quiet and mysterious and i am just there blabbering nonsense even to strangers.. and i simply need to stuff something into my mouth to keep myself quiet..

Okay i practised.. and i am supposed to keep a distance from what i supposed to say.. she say i not supposed to laugh.. i supposed to just laugh in a not so loud manner..fine! and so she also said i must be gentleman.. like help her take bag bla bla.. fine! she say gals look at me only classify me as a buddy! not even to potential bf.. sobxx.. but i have to improve!!! haha....

I feel so whatever to myself now.. haiz... going fucking college day...buai

|| Benji LuStEd aT 1:41 PM ||

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

Oh no.. just now met up wif Cher.. i seriously lost at words.. haiz.. Cher... pls remember what i told u.. no matter what.. pls la.. i am really worried bout u lo.. i noe its hard.. i feel very very sad right now as a fren cos i just donno how to help u... ARgg..

PLEASE CHER....

haiz... no mood to blog....

|| Benji LuStEd aT 9:42 PM ||

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

I have absolutely no idea when did i get this blardy irritating aura from... its like i kept meeting gals who think they are so fucking pretty that everyone should just implore and pray wif our knees, and worse still really ugly gal who tries to be yet again more irritating, not realising she should do more on her character since she has no looks already! Yikes... Because some ppl who know those bitches do read my blog, i shall remain devious, unless the bitch wants to surrender herself which i am willing to make sure her 'down there' rot so much that fungi even find it not condusive to mould themselves onto it... damn irritated...

Hey, i apologise if i am mean or something, but u should see their attitude and stuffs... I have always maintain this policy of "u dont screw me, i dont screw u" in sch, and yet without even opening my mouth and not knowing me, someone can just talk badly about me right in my face... she is miraculous.. seriously, she looks like she is having triplets... alright i shant complain too much before i become the bad one....i should be prudent of what i am supposed to type..hehe.. anywayz, i dont expect her to apologise or what.. i just wanna say, can u get ur facts right, know me, before u fuck me.. thanks.. now fuck off....

A few gals nowadays are simply too irritating, that it often makes ppl generalise that all gals are like that.. But then, i am fair, i do know gals wif really nice characters... seriously, i would be mesmerised.. its just a natural charm from some of them....

Today had sexual Education in sch.. Er its a vid about teenage pregnancy and the interviewers are bias in such a way, they choose those cases whereby the gals are at their worst, pregnant twice, that kind.. many gals are complaining that guys just wants sex, i agree... but then, if u think carefully, those that equate sex = love. Can they just seriously wake up from lala land... Think gals, be strong, dont be dumb, cos u will suffer eventually...

And u guys!!! stop right there, dont think they are toys pls.. fuck and go isit? may u bless wif syphillis.. seriously, if u all are not ready to take that responsible, just get a watermelon or something and get ur dick in... u only want the pleasure what, just to get that oblonged thing into a hole... crap..

I have personally met ppl that are pregnant at very young age, even as young as like 13.. Yes 13, when u are like halfway through puberty... yikes... and condoms should be used at all times pls.. i noe the room gets heat up too fast and men sexual body is like microwave oven, but thats not an excuse! and yes yes i noe bout condoms not as pleasurable and u like it raw or whatever, but research has shown that, it does not really affect ur thousands sensory neurons, its most probably due to the fact that u r CIRCUMCISED! HA! there.. go check ur tweety before making assumptions that u cant get enough pleasure..

Er i sound like some Sex therapists.. i am just making some basic awareness. Its traumatising enough to have an unwanted pregnancy. I can go on and on basing on what i have gained in knowledge throughout my years haha.. seriously i can take over the vid to screen more real situations. So what if ppl of my age do know karma sutra, thats so passe.. Go check out whats scating..which is a major problem in Singapore's Prostitution.. due to ultra perverted chee kor peks.. shant say much..u can go find out urself haha...

Anywayz.. once again to my frens who reads my blog, sorry for the amount of profanities today and the bitching session... i mean.. i was really irritated..

Alright now for the more hilarious thing that happened today at sch.. yes u dont get a chance to have so many ppl looking at u wif that agape look and u still can have the cheek to laugh out loud.. Today was really embarrassing pls.. cos after Naphfa test, i was fascinated by the chinese dance ppl who could do hand stand.. and so i donno why i just flip myself and was able to get that position but alamak the equilibrium wrong shift from my butt to my legs and pom! i went flat onto the ground... leaving the ppl around me burst out in total laughter.. seriously its so painful la.. diaoz...

Bleah.. anywayz... good news is... I DONT HAVE TO GO ARMY IN DECEMBER AFTER ALL!!! ... I passed my Fitness test with a silver! haha... er.. actually wanted to aim gold de..but my pull up little bit CMI.. like two more and i can get gold liao.. all my five items and my running got gold except pullup..sianz.... but nevetheless i was glas i passed... maybe i retaking my pullup to try to get that gold.. I got like A,A,B,C,D,C..everything missed by like 1 cm or something.. haha... 2.4km run was not my personal best but managed to hit 11.07min..i feel so fit now... MUSCLE MAN!!! lol...

Wha i realised i very rubbish today... hahah.. i ate like so many stuffs just now... from pasar malam...my favourite... i am little bit kopi tiam that kind of guy.. cos the food in hawker simply taste much much better than those high classed ones... hmm.. am i fat?! i am like 69kg now... BMI 20.8... acceptable weight but i felt heavy... haha...

|| Benji LuStEd aT 9:37 PM ||

Sunday, May 15, 2005

From now on..my blog will be much boring kinda stuffs cos nothing interesting in my life right now..its at one of the lowest point..haha... Whatever...at least i noe i am feeling happy right now...

O and i paid Cher a visit.. haiyo why suddenly sick neh! u better get well ya.. take care.. drink lots of water..sleep early.. eat all ur meal k..i noe i am naggy but i dont care... u better follow my orders!!!!!! haha.. i am aggresive..but seriously very worrying leh...

And my stupid boy haiyo why like so troubled leh recently?! can u like dont keep to urself?

Saturday nite went IndoChine Party..i must say the place is really classy and the number of people on the dance floor is Gargantuous pls...I cannot like dance at all.. only trying to squeeze through any possible empty place.. everyone is basically walking around the dance floor rather than dancing.. i just move a lil and was hit by two ppl against the wall..i give up! but then the music was not bad except that they should have things like pole dance or podium to dance.. Anywayz it was not bad la...some of the gals are pretty hot... but then u noe..its all the lighting and make up... i didnt dance much.. plus i dont like to anyhow touch other ppl that i dont noe.. its just so wrong for me... i aint perverted alright... although u can see those guys standing at one side waiting for an opportunity to wipe someone's ass or whatever la..cos u cannot complain after all due to the large number of ppl... smart..but i think this gal accidentally hit my thing.. which i conveniently gasp while she apologised.. diaoz..

Anywayz.. Met alot of ppl yesterday... glad to see Carmen like since so long...After which went over to Why Not.. change of atmosphere haha... different type of crowd.. but then i see no point to go in given that its closing soon anywayz... so went to Maxwell Market to eat wif Yang, Bendini and Edwin.. fuckin tired but had a great nite...

Anywayz.. these two days i feel so stressed.. i have to study for econs test, i have to vacuum the house, buy food for grandpa, boil water, wash here wash there, help my aunt buy 4D.. aiyo..

what am i?
Servant cum 4D broker ah! kaoz..

My bro is such an ass...cos i was really tired and asked him help me buy back some food.. and he complained.. what the! and everyday still can meet galfren lo.. yes i totally comprehend the so called power of love or whatever... but then.. poor gal only saw the act-good side of him.. o i forgot..love is blind what..plus i so good lo...mum instructed not to let him go out..i never even complain lo..say u go meet ur galfren..and this is what i get...

I seriously got addicted to do everything naked..haha..thats not a fetish or what..but i just feel so good walking around my house totally nude..haha.. sleep nude...swim nude..tan nude... goodness i am a flasher... no one is at home what..so its Freedom day... but hor..i even if i flasher hor..ppl will not admire leh.. sian.. show everything also no one want...

Why is it that nowadays.. i dont really know many new gals liao.. am i that monster?! or is it that i already too sian to socialise or simply cos its TPJC..haha... I want to know more older gals leh...can someone arrange a match making session for me... i seriously dont mind..Maybe shall write down some criteria haha...

-Decent looking
- Smart
- cheeky but can be lady like
- lady aura.. not Selina or Candy that kind of aura ( pui! )
- sexy..
- no whiny

Alright this are just expectations ... by the time i go through till the no whiney part..i guess all of the gals in Singapore are already striked out..haha... thats why its just criteria.. all guys have criterias but they wont get that pattern they want.. simply cos.. i am not Orlando Bloom myself and so who am i to choose... haha... Bleah.... But then at the very least.. No SELINA TYPE!!! The S.H.E SELINA!!! .. everytime saw her in TV, i always have the urge to stuff something up her ass lo..pls.. seriously, the way she 'teh' u just feel like stuffing some German Sausage to shut her mouth up.. yikes.. shit i no mood liao.. sorry to S.H.E fans..but she is a role model to destruction....

|| Benji LuStEd aT 8:25 PM ||

Saturday, May 14, 2005

Friday was havoc! haha.. life getting more and more exciting and fun... felt so good!

Guess what, yesterday right after my Chem Spa Test (which i hope to get full marks..shld be can la..X ), went Wild Wild Wet.. yes wif sch uniform.. haha.. then pia here pia there..damn fun la.. Then at night so shack already Edi suddenly suggested to watch a movie at around like 11 pm haha... i was like wha..SET! but then end up never go cos no new movies this week.. argg.. and btw folks.. Cathay has also decided to keep up wif the trend and so it is the soar of tickets prices after 18th May...

Anywayz.. gotta take care of my Grandpa le.. cos everyone just went Genting.. like wtf.. but then tonight is partay @ Indochine!

|| Benji LuStEd aT 9:42 AM ||

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

This is so fucking hilarious pls...

I was bathing at my mum's toilet and was like enjoying my shower for a few minutes and realised shucks.. i forgot to bring towel and no more Dove.. and so.. i was like pondering what the hell am i supposed to do.. As usual, i am a 'act first think later' kind of person, i ran out of the toilet dripping water all over the floor.. and naked..

And it was so comical pls..

JUST THEN.... -drums roll-

My grandma was cooking halfway and saw my full moon butt facing her lol.. and she was like mouth agape...like it has been ages since she actually saw some crazy baboon's ass.. haha..she must have thought she was in the Zoo.. and guess what i panicked and fell onto my own bed!

crap... i was laughin all the way la..still nude.. er.. heck la.. although i like being naked, but not wif someone in my house pls! so embarrassing and unglamorous... and so i wrapped myself wif a towel and headed to the bathroom leaving my grandma bursting wif laughter.. how dumb...

Eh.. its like totally whatever situation.. phew...

|| Benji LuStEd aT 6:35 PM ||

Monday, May 09, 2005

Today i wanna congratulate my team and myself and all of 04S21 for the great performance at the Sea Carnival heats..lol.. i think i qualified for the finals for 4 events:

1) boys relay
2) mixed double kayak wif fernie haha...
3) class Dragon Boat
4) Rafting haha...

Today was super duper fun and we have proven ourselves quite good at sea lol... Argg felt so good...

And most importantly... i am happy and aint lonely because of ... hurk hurk.. bleah...

|| Benji LuStEd aT 9:38 PM ||

Sunday, May 08, 2005

Oh dear, today woke up at 3.. thanks to my phone call wif Edi haha..until so late.. eh Mother's day today, well at least i bought some really nice chocolates for her although she conveniently told me i can eat it myself.. diaox...

Friday was Sports Meet.. Although we lost the 12x100m race but at least all of us show sportsmanship... yeah! So ya.. i noe we can win in the upcoming Sea Carnival de.. Then after sports meet so funny went to play LAN... like so so so long since i even remembered playing LAN... was enjoying myself cos i love computer games what... Then at nite went to Zhong Guo Hei haha China Black... er i would like to thank Danny and his frens for bringing Yang and me in for free haha... The music was not bad at first.. then the next DJ is like er.. dotx... First time saw Danny's Galfren haha.. pretty pls.. then we jumped to yet another club... Went Why Not, saw Bendini and Sangill.. haha.. but then that nite was smoky pls..

Then on Sat went to eat dinner wif Cher, Summer and Cher's parents at Sushi Teh.. haha.. i wasnt stressed that her parents are around.. in fact i think they are cute... lol.. and i was like tired eyes wif a "ai mai ai mai" greeting.. Argg.. and i was so dumb pls.. kept making a fool out of myself and making her parents laugh in amazement haha.. but it was fun.. but then i dont eat Sushi de what...so was like staring blankly at the carousel and realise everything is like Raw.. i really dislike Jap Food.. then got myself some Chicken Don thingy.. quite nice la.. and some Gyoza...

After which we went to meet Yang and went to Legends Pub to sing Karaoke..haha.. and apparently we sounded weird that day.... and it was like singing in public..o how embarrassing... never mind.. got ourselves a jug of Cranberry Volka.. and Guess what. Summer darling was so dumb that she kept losing to me at guessing games.. and so she was like practically drunk.. Lousy..haha... After which Summer and I left while Yang ANd Cher went Why Not..

Then on my way home... this guy in his 20s followed me out of the MRT.. then i was like omfg.. why is he following me to my house.... then just as i strided to my house lift, he stopped me and compelled me to like shake hands wif him..weird.. then he asked if Summer was my gal fren.. and i was like ya... to bluff him..then he asked for my number and i was like no sorry... wif that half bitchy, half bastard expression lolEww.. i made sure he got off first before i took the lift...o crap.. what an experience.. i was like telling Bubu.. win 4D also not so lucky lo.. so unlucky to get all such nonsense... and seriously i think he asked the wrong guy..lol

Anyway had non stop playing liao so now study time!! yes dont grump Benji... and the most fucked up thing was i misplaced my fucking file which contains all my notes!! arggg..someone pls kill me...

|| Benji LuStEd aT 4:40 PM ||

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

i have discovered that my mum has actually one quality that is ideal lol.. of course i cannot fall in love wif my mum.. thats ridiculous haha.. i dont want either.. its just that she is a great exotic massager..

She just gave me a half body lavender aromatic body massage lol.. thats what she said.. i was adamant at first.. but i like ppl to give me massages so ya.. and o m freaking god.. she is phenomenal haha.. dreams.. if my gf is a massager how nice..haha.. aiya i am expecting too much... -slaps-

Anywayz i was like checking my com's disk drive and realise that the capacity just keeps dropping.. and so i started my com investigation and guess what... my bros installed some game which took so much disk space.. and my second bro as usual, we noe his a horny guy... had i-don-wanna-noe mbs of updated list of porn vids.. i gave up la ah.. i am acting like a Cyber brother trying to avoid him from watching porn by working closely wif Cyber nanny.. watch all u want..i dont give a fuck.. just dont jerk off near my keyboard ass hole...

O no i have to hurry pia the GP presentation le..

lastly, i love lavender aromatics..hee

|| Benji LuStEd aT 8:22 PM ||

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

Buay Tahan la!!!! Yeepee.. fuckin esctatic lol....

Cos i saw two eye candy.. iRresistably hot!! Okay the first one was at the MRT.. she was the dance teacher Jennifer.. yes i noe.. she is fierce, screams hysterically.. but who cares...she's hot! apparently Yang was like angry wif me for keep staring at her instead of him... diaoX.. haha.. she is really stylish alright, girl wif attitude... i am burning... and her hair is so stylo pom pee pee! shitz..saliva dripping sensation...

The second one.. saw this guy at this food fest just now.. Fuckin knock out.. he has the Qi yu wu kind of look.. wha.. his face just screams "kiss me!".. -pants-

But then conclusion is, Jennifer still takes my breath away...

Okay aside from this secondary years kind of superficial infatuation, i must say friendster has really too many people seeking for the ideal guy or girl.. yikes.. the more i read thru the post.. the more i wanna puke.. Like what,

he must play wif ur hair ( someone pull her hair pls.. )
be funny but know how to be serious, ( how contradicting.. WTF )
call u for no reason.. ( Thats simply irritating.. )
Smile a lot. ( go be ambassador of woodbridge la! )
Offer you plenty of massages. ( singtel manager ah.. simply makes no sense..it just means i want to have sex wif u ultimately given that i have sent u 100 messages..)

Like HELLO!!

Wait .. BIG BIG HELLO!!!

This is not kindergarden match making alright... O gosh.. some gals just really need to be burnt alive.. i mean it...

anywayz.. rubbish and lala gals aside.. i wanna say something to my dear Zach Di..

Di ah... u noe what... i noe its hard to continue a relationship when the other partner dont really communicate.. but whenever u find it hard to talk, try to be the one to initiate something that both of u like to do... there is always a need for someone to initiate, not waiting...if u feel that the feeling has fade, it always work if u think back the first time, what u like bout him.. haha..and pls ah di... be optimistic first.. if u think pessimistically, everything wont seem right.. and also..when was ur last heart to heart talk wif him.. like really serious talks? both of u need to go through one big ordeal to realise the importance between each other.. i seriously hope u will be happy ya.. and so i will be delighted too to see your happiness.. haha.. okay i am naggy..but whatever.. i am gonna do my mask liao..

|| Benji LuStEd aT 9:59 PM ||

Monday, May 02, 2005

Crap... time just whizz pass so fast, that i got my first thrust from reality.. Sch tomorrow.. and i have not done any single fucking piece of hw.. Shit... LEts see.. one two three.. fuck..majority GP homework... dotxX!

Am i simply too blur recently or just plain dumb... its like Sat we ate wif Huimin and er o shiats i donno her name... she was like asking me if i noe Jesselyn from Cedar.. i was like er which Jesselyn?..then she was like never mind.. and after eating some Cheese fries which apparently is my brain inducer.. i was like "oo u frm Cedar ya.. do u noe Jesselyn?"

HOW DUMB! LOSER!!! haha... I swear she almost got choked by Mountain Dew... another sip would simply make her the first woman to die of laughter..haha.. Alright.. Benji is so dumb.. heck la.. After some conversation.. I realised ya.. actually girls really wont like me... but i willing to change leh.. but i just fuckin donno whats the problem..! Summer said i am too bitchy to be someone's bf.. okay great.. i already improved liao ma... And she said i can only be best frens wif gals.. what the.. and so how?!!! faints... my life span wif gals just proceed until best friends.. and then they take a large broom a smack my face to tell me to STOP! haha.. haiz

so so so sad... haha.. never mind... its like.. looks like thats what people see me as..great... And so the guy who predicted my life was right:

I will have broken relationships for my entire life

So now i am gonna hug myself and pronounced myself married to MYSELF! but i cannot kiss myself.. Summer asked me go kiss mirror lo.. fine...

|| Benji LuStEd aT 1:56 PM ||

Sunday, May 01, 2005

Alright..so Sat was so fun.. so long since i have that adrenaline Rush, expressing once again, the rebellious side of me..lol.. So Sat, Summer and I watched our very first R21 movie!! haha.. well.. no big deal to many ppl.. but guess its just the satisfaction of doing something exciting... haha..

The movie was fantastic, its called Summerstorm.. And i tell u .. Amanda was like totally jealous that we could catch that sweet movie.. Alright i shall do some intro of that movie.. its R21 cos of the gay elements..but who cares..its sweet anyway.. O and Summer saw her GP teacher.. and we felt little uncomfortable at some explicit straight sex scenes...lol.. u noe what i mean.. Extra big screen wif gorgeous ppl wif mammalian thingys doing funny things in funny positions..lol.. er...

We arent horny teens trying to watch some R21 porn flick.. One of the purpose actually is to do our part in donating that small amt of movie tickets for some fund raising thingy for ANTI HIV CAMPAIGN.... And Summer was like so obsessed wif the movie... Buay tahan.. We are also surprised that many straight couples are around.. but good..at least its a sign of open Singaporean...

Here are some pics..

Er.. its basically a coming of age kind of movie..whereby emotions of one's sexuality is questioned.. This movie is really artistic and only acceptable for open people..thats y the R21 rating..but.. the movie is like telling us the struggles faced by many people leading alternative lifestyles..u get to see how confusion strikes a supposedly straight guy who fell for his best guy fren, u see how a gal try her best to get her gay bf back on track but eventually realised he really loves his bestfren so much more.. U see how devastation works with unrequitted love..

Its really interesting la.. but do also watch Hilary Swank's "Boys dont cry" as well as Charlize Theron's "Monster".. both Lesbian flicks but very intriguing and compelling.. i promise...lol

Sat went to club too wif Yang and Bendini to celebrate Bendini's fren.. but i more loking forward to the coming INDOCHINE PARTY.. and also looking forward for House of Wax and Sin City...

|| Benji LuStEd aT 10:54 PM ||

Okay lets see... I update things that happened on Sat later.. now i am in Zach's house... Bleah... Just had Dragon boat Training... My hand hurts but its all worth it today.. Okay the keyboard sucks.. i shall stop... blog later wheeZ..

|| Benji LuStEd aT 7:08 PM ||